Confidence...

So it seems as though my confidence in what I am capable of seems to grow and dwindle depending on the circumstances. Lately, the confidence pendulum has been on the upswing.

I have run a few calls that have gone well, where I just felt like I had the whole call management thing figured out.

I've regained my interest in firefighting activities again. I have a Lt that I like to work with, I finally found some interest in the DPO stuff I'm doing, and I decided to try out the physical agility course that they put together for the most recent hiring process, and i completed it successfully, including the part where you have to drag the 165-lb dummy 100 ft. I knew that once I got a good grip and stood up with it that I would be able to complete it, but it was tough (I had some great people encouraging me along the way though!. I did discover that a 24 foot extension ladder feels like it weighs approximately nothing after the dummy drag. The passing time was 5:33, and my time was 4:59. I was pretty pumped.

So it made me feel really good about myself. It wasn't the worst time out of the group, and there were several people who didn't pass at all. So when I saw those individuals fail, and saw what time it took others to complete the course, I wasn't sure I'd be able to do it. I really have never tested myself to see just how much I can lift or how far I can go or what I can do, so it was kind of nice to see that I could get through it. I guess I should give myself a little more credit.

Oh not to mention that the rest of my life is good. Happy home life, happy work life, happy play life. Life is just good.